Wondering what to do....

I have been having a lot of questions on my mind lately. Questions that I am not sure what to do.

School...
When do I go back to school? Which school do I go to? Do I continue English Education Degree?

I always said that once Simon graduated I would go back to school. Well, he graduated in December and I know I need to go back but its so difficult to get motivated. I only have a year and a half left for my degree. I only have 3 more English classes and then a full year of Education classes and student teaching. I was attending UGA when we decided we had NO money for school and now I am sure I could go back to be a DAWG fan, but their education program is so difficult to get into... I get frusterated just thinking about it. And then I was thinking about going to GA STATE or even changing my major to broadcasting at The Connecticut School of Bradcasting located in Gwinnett County. Who knows?

Babies...
Do we continue to try and concieve? Do we wait until we live on our own? Do we wait until I finish school?

Simon and I have been trying for a while.... and well yeah.... you probably know we have not been a lucky family. I am afraid that I may be one who will need fertility treatments as my doctor a while ago said it might be needed. And well, we have NO money for the treatments as they are EXPENSIVE!!!! UGH! We currently reside with my inlaws in thier basement. Its not my dream or even something I am proud of, but its what is needed to be done to be caught up on debt. I always dreamed of coming home and bringing our baby to "our" home. And I do not need want to be an OLD mom and we both are so ready to have kids i dont want to stop but I cant have a kid while in school or even while my first year of teaching?! I know God knows when my timing will be right, but i hate that everything is not working and i feel so discouraged knowing that there is nothing Simon and I can do right now.

Keeping my blog....
Whether or not to delete?

I love my blog! Do not get me wrong, its like my personal diary that I can escape to and will always listen. Its also a way to stay in touch with my friends, family and Simons family. But lately I feel as though it has caused more problems than good. Not my intentions ever. My blog is made about "ME" and everything on here is something going on in my life; good and bad! I am not perfect, God did not make us to be perfect. I am a Christian and a friend. But I make mistakes as much as the next and I have to learn from them. I like to have an occasional drink with my friends and it not be a big deal or "look bad". I like to go to church and spread the word. I like to vent as much as the next to get things off of my chest. I dont know whether it is best to stop my blog to stop the gossip or to just ignore everything and continue my life as I was? This is not meant to offend anyone just a question I was thinking about.

If anyone wants to help and give some advice I will take any I can get. Its just a few things being wieghed on my mind lately and I hope you all can help!

Thank You!!!!

Peace and Love

I do not enjoy fighting.... EVER! With friends, family, or Simon. Not everyone is going to have the same opinions and we all have to agree to disagree. Its perfectly normal to to butt-heads when everyone thinks that they are right... but I know I am NOT always right. I am very emotional and take things to heart that maybe I shouldn't. I am a work in progress and if I ever say or do anything hurtful... 99% of the time.... it is NOT my intention. I don't EVER want to hurt anyone's feelings because I don't like to get my feelings hurt. I very easily forgive and forget and at the moment... I am happy and glad to have NO feuds with friends, family, or Simon.

God brings people into our lives to learn from and to become better people... and I know that everyone out there is special and means a lot to me!

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

REMEMBERING WHAT MATTERS MOST

This Blog is not one that I can take credit for. This is a sermon that I heard at church on Sunday that really hit home and spoke loud words to me. It opened my eyes and I know what I need to do.... Here is the sermon, thanks to Pastor Troy a The Oasis Church in Loganville, Georgia.

REMEMBERING WHAT MATTERS MOST
It's a Brand New year. Is it the Same Old You?
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Psalm 39:4; Psalm 90:12

Three truths to remember is we are going to focus our lives and reduce overload:
1. The best use of life is TO LOVE.
*Two reasons that God wants love to be our highest goal in life:
1. God says love is what LIFE is all ABOUT.
2. Love is all that's going to LAST.

FACT: Life is NOT about achievement and its NOT about accomplishment. Its about RELATIONSHIPS!!!!

2. The best expression of love is TIME.

3. The best time to love is NOW.

I thought this sermon would help others reflect on their lives and maybe we all can help change the way we live.

We remember the Hurt and we forget the lessons learned.... we need to focus on the now and the loved ones here today.

Not everything urgent is important... we need to listen to those around us and spend time with them even if it means less money at work to be able to make it home before the kids go to bed or missing the favorite tv show to talk to your loved ones.

It really hit home that Love REQUIRES sacrifice. We can not love without giving and forgiving. Loving relationships are your LIFE!!!

Forgive those who hurt you, apologize to those whom you hurt, and trust that God can answer prayers.

Here are a few of the scriptures we went over in church that i have been reading over and over again today.... God is GOOD!

"Let love be your highest goal." 1 Corinthians 14:1

"No matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, Im bankrupt without love." 1 Corinthians 13:3

"Three things will last forever--faith, hope, and love--and the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:13

"And live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragment offering and sacrifice to God." Ephesians 5:2

" Show me, O Lord, my lifes end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting is my life." Psalms 39:4

"Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom." Palms 90:12

FACT:
"If you want to revitalize a dying relationship,
a dying marriage, a lying friendship,
its going to start with you investing some more time."
-Pastor Troy Shaw

I hope you enjoyed this as much I enjoyed hearing it... May God Bless!!!

It's 5 O'Clock Somewhere!!!

I recently found my old bartender books and I came across my favorite fruity adult beverage....Captains Punch!!!! Its so good even Simon and his guy friends drink it... and they usually are the tough rugged beer men.... but this is seriously that good!!!



*Captains Punch*
1 oz Captain Morgan
3/4 oz Banana Liqueur
3/4 oz Peach Schnapps
Orange Juice
Pineapple Juice
Grenadine

Usually served in a BIG schooner glass.... BUT its yummy regardless of the size you make it!!!!

ENJOY =)

getting F-I-T!!!!!!

I enjoy working out and feeling a good sweat and look forward to seeing the hopeful outcome. But how come it has been the hardest thing to get motivated? I roll over in bed and hit the alarm and lay there. In my mind I know I am trying to talk myself out of going to the gym but I manage to overcome my desire of the extra 30 minutes of sleep and I get going. I go to the gym 3-4 times a week: Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays and alternate abs/arms and leg workouts. During the Thanksgiving and Christmas break I did not once go to the gym and the workouts are the same yet just from the 2 months I did not attend the gym my body is just as sore as it was a year ago when I began to work out. I am going to continue to go to the gym and in the back of my mind I picture myself skinny and fit. Although I am not sure if I will totally be happy with the outcome; due to the research I did when I was deciding whether or not to cheer for a college I found out that for my height (5'0) the recommended weight is 100-105 lbs.; which I wasn't even that small in high school. I a happy with the weight that I am only because at the beginning of last year I weighed in at 130 lbs and now I am down 10 lbs on a good day. =) Hopefully my process of working as a gymnastics instructor and going to the gym 4 days a week will have a great impact on toning up my body for summer Bikini weather!

Lazy friday

Last night was an unusual night in Georgia. 2010 has began off with a bang and is turning out to have one of the coldest winters I can remember in a long time for the state of Georgia. Of course when I use to live in New Hampshire the cold is expected to hit the teens and twenties.... but in Georgia... Its crazy! We were watching the news all week seeing what they had to say on the weather. They were calling for snow, and right on time the snow came in and it was beautiful! When it first began to snow it was a little over freezing so it did not stick. I was getting bummed the later it got and it wasn't sticking. I miss the snow and I told Simon I would move back to New Hampshire in a heartbeat to have a full winter. He said that I am crazy and there is no way he'd move up there. =) I woke up this morning because I knew it continued to snow throughout the night. If the school system closed for the day I would have the day off of work. To my excitement Gwinnett County Schools were closed and I get a chance for some much needed rest and relaxation. It seemed throughout the holidays I never got the rest I needed due to my busy schedule with work, family, friends, church, and Simon. I walked the dog at 5:30am and I was FREEZING! It was only 15 degrees outside and poor Foxy was shaking and was so cold. Although it snowed for a while, we only got a mere dusting of snow. Nothing to really get excited about. I definately could not get out of our driveway. Under the thin layer of snow is ice and my mother-in-law slid the entire way trying to get up the driveway and needless to say I am stuck in the house. I am in no way complaining because I am sitting on the couch watching my soaps (All My Children, One Life to Live, and General Hospital- yes I know, I have no life) and staying warm under my blanket and snuggling with the dog. Today is a good day!

TOP 5 HUNKS!!! =)

okay- So Simon and I always create a top 5 list of our celebrity crushes. Why we do this, I have no clue. But it seems to change a lot. So Ive decided that every couple of months I am going to create a new top 5 and see how much it changes. Half the time I can never remember who are on my lists and they are always different! hahaha.

Here we go...
1. Zac Efron : from High School Musicals I II & III, Hairspray, 17 Again

2. Bradley Cooper: from Wedding Crashers & The Hangover

3. Dane Cook: Comedian and from Good Luck Chuck

4. James Marsden: from The Notebook, Hairspray, 27 Dresses, & The Box

5. James Franco: from Spider-Man, General Hospital, Pineapple Express